Balancing The Scales


Whether to do or not to do, that is the question.

There were some things I had little choice about doing or leaving while I was ill. Visiting the bathroom for example, making my food, eating my food etc. So I did them in spite of the likelihood of a dippy time following or even during.

But sometimes there is a choice. To do? Or not to do?

How did I choose?

I went out with my dog because being out in nature (the woods or the beach perhaps) was enjoyable and beneficial, and the experience gave me good memories to use later on in my ART etc. I could get to my car, my dog jumped in and I drove to my choice of her walking venue. Then I’d sit and watch her enjoy herself running around, maybe chasing leaves etc. Often her antics would make me laugh.

After we got home I would go and lie down, meditate and rest and recuperate.

I enjoyed short visits from people who respected my condition (not many fully understood it, but respecting it was enough.) Again I would lie down afterwards or even while they sat in a different room, so that I could meditate and recuperate.

So I found myself balancing the scales between:

a) creating new good memories through some activity, thus having a more dippy time;


b) choosing not to do that activity.

Sometimes I chose a) and sometimes b).

Sometimes my choice worked out well, sometimes not so well. But it was my choice and I had weighed up the pros and cons before making that choice.

Because of that it was easier for me to accept whatever happened, and allow it to happen, relax about it happening and almost certainly reduced the effects.


Margaret Cory

Having been forced to stop working aged 53 due to CFS, I was later diagnosed with Fibromyalgia as well. (With the added challenges of hypersensitivity to chemicals, smells, various foodstuffs, bright light, noise, etc.)

10 years later I found the Gupta Program and started my recovery. Wanting to pay back some small part of what I owe the Gupta Program I later volunteered to be a moderator in the Facebook Gupta Forum.

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